Há alguns meses, contamos a história de Bella, uma cadela da raça labrador que foi diagnosticada com câncer ósseo do tipo osteossarcoma em uma das patas dianteiras, que precisou ser amputada. Infelizmente, a doença acabou re-aparecendo nos pulmões da cadelinha.
Seu tutor, que é médico veterinário, viu que nada mais poderia ser feito por ela, então decidiu lhe proporcionar os melhores dias de sua vida, com várias viagens pelo país e atividades que enchiam a vida da cadela de alegria.
No último sábado (29), o tutor de Bella postou em sua conta no Instagram uma foto que a mostra de repouso. Na legenda da foto, Robert Kugler, tutor da labrador, contou que após um passeio de bicicleta, a respiração de Bella começou apresentar alguns tremores e espasmos, além de estar com dificuldade para conseguir respirar.
Ele então a levou até uma clínica, onde ela ficou no oxigênio e passou por um raio-x. “Os exames mostraram que os seus pulmões simplesmente não estavam mais conseguindo produzir oxigênio o suficiente….a hora está chegando,” escreveu.
Well, #TeamBella…it's hard for me to tell you this, but today may have very well been our last full day in the beautiful outdoors. Bella started shivering today and her breathing became labored. There was actually a time after our bike ride that I looked into her eyes as I held her head in my lap and saw what they were telling me. I told her that I would be okay…that I'm ready if she is…and that I'll be holding her every step of the way. For a moment, I thought she may fall asleep right there in my arms. Yet, she held on..and we got up and chased some geese, and she went for another swim. Nonetheless, her breathing and shivering became worse and we zoomed up from the park in Denver to the FourSeasons Vet Hospital in Loveland. She's on oxygen right now and has been given a sedative to help. The X-rays showed that her lungs simply cannot produce enough oxygen…the time is near. We're doing our best to keep her comfortable through the night and set up a bridge crossing ceremony tomorrow at one of our new favorite outdoor spots we found here in Colorado. I'll be getting off my phone tonight and instead writing in a journal…possibly making another post in a few hours just to show her in her blanket and some comfort items that were given to her. Please don't ask for updates, judge any decisions, or even pray that she doesn't go. Just…know that it's okay that she is going. She has fulfilled her purpose. There are lessons to be learned from this timing. We are in a good place, with great people. I'll do my best to learn from this. It hurts…god it hurts…but it's going to happen…and that's okay. We cannot escape death, but we can embrace life. What you can send prayers and good energy for…is her comfort, her calm, my clarity, and my presence. She truly is the most perfect creature I've ever known…the spirit world is about to be that much more amazing, and I look forward to having the honor and gift of ushering her across that beautiful bridge. Now…it's time for me to observe every beautiful thing I Love about my best friend as I lay on the floor next to her…admiring the perfection of her existence. Much Love, Rob n Bella #GoBellaGo
Infelizmente, Bella faleceu no dia seguinte. Seu tutor fez uma postagem com um grande texto muito emocionado falando sobre a importância dela para ele e o quanto foi grato por todos esses anos em que ela viveu ao seu lado e alegrou os seus dias.
“”Adeus meu amor. Obrigado por me amar…nunca me julgar…nunca desistir de mim… obrigado… por me amar com cada batida daquele lindo coração. Agora vá, torne-se um em meio a todos…dance com o vento, se flua com o oceano e aqueça os corações de todos aqueles que você tocou…seu amor agora eterno e imensurável,” escreveu Robert.
Na postagem, ele ainda fez questão de homenagear seus parentes que já morreram e pediu para que eles recebessem bem a cadelinha e que fizessem carinhos na barriga dela.
Goodbye my Love. Thank you for never abandoning me…never judging me…never giving up on me… Thank you…for Loving me with every beat of that beautiful heart. Now go, become one with all…dance in the wind, flow in the ocean, and give warmth to the hearts of all you've touched…for your Love is now eternal and immeasurable. To my brother Mike, sister Charity and all my grandparents… give this girl some tummy rubs, would you? For all the spirits young and old who were brought to the other side far too soon due to some type of ailment or disease that took you before your time… welcome this girl as I'm sure she's greeting you with a wagging tail.
I wasn't sure if I would ever share this photo…as it's the last intimate moment that I spent with Bella. Yet…as I wondered this morning what will come of this social media following…what the purpose of sharing has been, and what it will now grow into after her passing…I remembered that there is such an opportunity to help others as they go through their own losses, or have pain the memories of their loss. As I'm struggling today with the fact that I didn't get to give Bella her picturesque waterside passing, I am reminded of our final goodbye. Instead of leaving her at the vet, I drove her to the crematorium and carried her from my vehicle myself. When it came time to leave…I couldn't. I couldn't just leave her there. My heart was crushed into a thousand pieces…my mind was spinning and my chest was full of anxiety. I felt it all happened too fast. I had so much time to say goodbye, but I hadn't really told her goodbye. I hadn't prepared her. I hand't done enough..and now I was just leaving her. How will I ever forgive myself for just leaving her there? Then…I caught myself. I knew what I needed to do. I went back to her perfectly beautiful body…kneeled down, placed my hand on her chest, and found my breath. Perhaps for merely even a minute or two…I breathed in…filling my lungs and my belly…and I breathed out. The world slowed down, along with my mind and heart. I told Bella that I was sending her all of my Love…and asked her to send me all of mine. I kissed her forehead one last time…and then remembered I could now kiss that beautiful nose of hers once again now that it was no longer in pain. I told her I Loved her…and left feeling fulfilled…and at peace. Perhaps this peace…has been what I've been searching for all along. Hopefully in my sharing this, you can remember to find your breath…and your breath can bring you your peace. Hang in there, #TeamRobandBella, we're still together in this thing called life…and what a beautiful thing it can be.